THE REVERSE ARCH OF THE BACK IS INDICATIVE OF SHELL SHOCK

 

KNOCK! KNOCK! AND COLLAPSE.

THERE WAS A LOUD KNOCKING ON A DOOR. I SPASMED INTO A REVERSE ARCH. MY LEFT LEG TWISTED. I FELL ASLEEP REPEATEDLY IN THE FOLLOWING HOURS.

I DID NOT KNOW IT WAS THE SAMSUNG R5 SOUND BAR. I THOUGHT IT WAS REAL.

I HAVE SPECULATED ABOUT WHY I MIGHT HAVE BECOME MORE DISABLED WITHOUT INJURING MYSELF. THE REAL ARRIVAL OF POLICE, OR THE THREAT OF THE CREATION OF THAT, HAS CAUSED ME TO COLLAPSE IN THE PAST.

THIS LEADS BACK TO CHILDHOOD ASSAULTS BY MY MOTHER, WHERE I WAS WRENCHED DOWN TO THE GROUND BY MY HAIR, BENDING MY BACK INTO A REVERSE ARCH, TWISTING MY NECK AND COLLAPSING MY LEFT LEG TO DO IT.

I STILL HAVE THE SAME REACTION WHEN I THINK I HAVE THE POLICE TRYING TO GET INTO MY HOUSE AND AT ME.

PAUL WHELAN SAID THE MOST TERRIFYING PART OF STATE OPPRESSION WAS WAITING FOR THE RUSSIAN POLICE TO ARRIVE. 

I WILL HAVE TO OBSERVE WHAT IS GOING ON EVERY TIME I HEAR SOUNDS IN MY DRIVEWAY. I LOOK OUT MY WINDOW AND I HAVE
MEMORIES OF LOOKING OUT TO SEE THAT THE POLICE WERE HERE.

THERE IS AN UNDERESTIMATION OF HOW FRIGHTENING AND TERRIBLE IT IS TO HAVE NUMEROUS PERSONS TRYING TO DRAG ME DOWN. I AM STOLEN FROM, FALSELY ACCUSED AND PHYSICALLY ASSAULTED.

PEOPLE IN THE 

VARIOUS GROUPS 

WHOM I CRITICIZE 

FOR STEALING FROM 

ME OR LYING ABOUT 

ME ARE ANGRY, 

ANGRY, ANGRY, AT 

ME AND I HAVE NOT 

HARMED ANYONE 

NOR HAVE I STOLEN 

ANYTHING FROM ANY 

OF THE ANGRY 

GANGSTERS. 

JUST HAVING 

EVERYONE IN MY  

FAMILY, PEOPLE 

WHO LIVE NEAR MY 

OTTER POINT 

HOMESTEAD 

AND PEOPLE WHO 

LIVE NEAR MY 

VICTORIA 

ROCKCLIFFE 

APARTMENTS 

ANGRY WITH ME 

AND 

ATTEMPTING TO 

IMPOVERISH 

ME, OR SUCCEEDING 

IN DOING THAT TO ME, 

IN THE PAST,

CREATES 

A TERRIBLE 

DISCOURAGING 

MENTAL BURDEN.

I ALWAYS FEEL LIKE 

I AM GOING TO BE 

ATTACKED. I USED TO 

BE VERY CONFIDENT 

NOW I AM ALWAYS 

WORRIED. 

IN 1990 MY WIFE 

EXULTED. "I HAVE 

BEEN TO SEE THE 

PEOPLE UP THE 

ROAD" SHE SAID 

"AND I TOLD THEM 

EVERYONE ELSE'S 

SIDE OF  EVERY 

CONFLICT YOU 

HAVE BEEN IN."

Thursday, May 9, 2024

 

I IWONDER WHAT SHE TOLD THEM.

TRIXIE DASHEVSKY AKA BETTY DASH AND BETTY COLLARD ALSO GOT THE POLICE TO TRY TO HELP HER SEIZE MY HOME IN OCTOBER 1992, WHEN I WAS SEEKING EMPLOYMENT AS A MUSICIAN IN ENGLAND. I WAS TO MEET WITH CHARLIE WATTS BUT I HAD TO RETURN TO OTTER POINT AND I COULD NOT LEAVE AS I WAS BEING STALKED TO SEE IF I LEFT AND THE EX-WIFE, HER LAWYER AND COOPERATING POLICE BY-LAW AND SHERIFFS OR BAILIFFS COULD SEIZE MY HOUSE, BY CLAIMING I HAD ABANDONED IT AND IT WAS MY EX-WIFE'S SOURCE OF FUTURE SUPPORT WHICH IT WAS NOT.

IN ADDITION  IF I COULD BE INCARCERATED FOR MORE THAN TWO MONTHS, THEN MY EX WIFE WOULD GET MY HOUSE. ONCE IT WAS SEIZED THERE WOULD BE NOTHING I COULD DO TO GET IT BACK 

iIN  OCTOBER OF 1996, FALSE CHARGES WERE LAID AGAINST ME WHICH I, SELF REPRESENTED, DISPROVED IN PROVINCIAL COURT IN VANCOUVER BUT I WAS PUNISHED FIRST BY BEING CRIPPLED AGAIN, WORSE THAN EVER AND I NEVER DANCED LIVE ON STAGE AGAIN.

I WAS HOGTIED WITH CHAINS IN AN UN-HEATED UN-VENTILATED VAN FOR 6 HOURS WHICH WAS CONTRIVED TO GET ME TO KICK THE VAN AND SCREAM AND I DID NOT FALL FOR IT. I WAS BARELY RECOVERED FROM SEVERAL YEARS OF VIRTUAL PARALYSIS. I WAS CRIPPLED BY THIS IN OCTOBER OF 1996 AND I NEVER DANCED  LIVE ON STAGE AGAIN.

THIS CHAIN WAS AROUND MY WAIST AND IT WAS ATTACHED TO HANDCUFFS.

ANOTHER SET OF CHAINS LIKE THESE WITH THE CUFFS AROUND MY ANKLES WAS ATTACHED TO THE WAIST CHAIN.

 

THE NEVER ENDING REPERCUSSIONS OF EVENTS WHICH CAUSE COLLAPSE , CONVULSION, PHYSICAL IMPACT INJURY OR SHELL SHOCK.

THE EFFECTS OF BEING RAIDED AND WORSE, DRAGGED OFF TO JAIL, WITHOUT MY COMMITTING A CRIME ARE STILL ALWAYS WITH ME, ON MY MIND.

EVERY TIME I LOOK OUT MY WINDOWS OR HEAR A MOTOR VEHICLE I AM APPREHENSIVE THAT POLICE ARE HERE.

IT HAS BEEN EIGHT YEARS SINCE THE POLICE WERE LAST HERE BUT SHELL SHOCK IS NEVER ENDING.

I NEVER REALLY GET TO FEEL SECURE AND RELAXED AT MY HOME WHERE I HAVE LIVED FOR NEARLY A HALF A CENTURY. MY EX-WIFE AND HER LAWYER WERE SURE I WOULD BE HARASSED INTO SELLING OUT AND THEN SHE WOULD BE ABLE TO TAKE MORE MONEY FROM ME.

  

I HAVE TO DECLARE THAT AFTER ENOUGH HOSTILE UNLAWFUL INTERVENTIONS HAD OCCURRED I LOST MY COURAGE AND MY CONFIDENCE.

THE WORST SHELL SHOCK INDUCING SCENARIOS INVOLVE INTIMIDATING OVERWHELMING FORCE OR NUMBERS.

A REALLY DEVASTATING BLOW IS DEALT TO ONE`S ENERGY AND PEACE OF MIND WHEN THE POLICE RAID WHILE ONE IS SLEEPING. I HAVE NEVER SLEPT PROPERLY AND DEEPLY WHERE THIS HAPPENED AT MY SUITE IN VICTORIA AND AT MY HOMESTEAD AT OTTER POINT BC. 

THIS IS AN EFFECT OF THE SHELL SHOCK WHICH IS PRODUCED BY UNWARRANTED AND UNPROVOKED RAIDS ON MY HOME.

SHELL SHOCK MAY BE AN IMPORTANT CONTRIBUTOR TO MY TONIC IMMOBILITY, COLLAPSE AND THE VIRTUAL TO TOTAL PARALYSIS WHICH I AM EXPERIENCING NOW. I CANNOT EVEN DO MY, PREVIOUSLY ALWAYS DONE DAILY, MUSIC PRACTICE.

I FIND MYSELF, REPEATEDLY, IN A SEMI-FETAL POSITION. I AM HALF CURLED AND MY LEFT LEG IS BENT MORE THAN THE RIGHT LEG. I DO NOT MOVE A MUSCLE.

Postscript: I often do not get relief without applying traction to my back and/or neck, or legs and in addition, often, I have to interlock my fingers and apply traction by curling my hand to pull on my  fingers and my arm or I pull out my fingers by grasping and twisting my fingers and applying traction to finger joints.

THIS IS THE "THROWN DOWN" PART OF ONE OF THOSE MOTHER'S ATTACKS WHERE MY NECK WAS TWISTED TO THE RIGHT AND THEN YANKED BACK TO THE LEFT AND I WAS THROWN TO THE FLOOR.

WHEN I WAS SNUCK UP ON AND THROWN DOWN, AND SOMETIMES JUMPED ON AS WELL, A PAVLOVIAN COLLAPSE RESPONSE WAS CREATED. 

I CAN COLLAPSE IF I AM THREATENED OR IF I THINK SOMEONE IS GOING TO SNEAK UP ON ME OR IF AN UNJUST PUNISHMENT IS ATTEMPTED. THE IMPOSITION OF A PLAN TO HAVE NUMEROUS AUTHORITIES STALK, CHARGE AND JAIL ME CREATES A WEAKNESS IN MY ENTIRE BODY.

WHEN I HAVE BEEN SURROUNDED BY HOSTILE PERSONS I HAVE COLLAPSED, USUALLY DOWN MY LEFT SIDE, WHICH COMPRESSED AND INJURED MY KNEE.

AFTER EVERY INJURY, COLLAPSE OR CONVULSION, VIRTUAL PARALYSIS AND TONIC IMMOBILITY SET IN, ALONG WITH, AT THE WORST, THE REVERSE ARCHED BACK WHICH IS A SYMPTOM OF  

SHELL SHOCK.

THIS MAY BE THE MOST IMPORTANT POST IN THE SHELLSHOCK LIFE BLOG.

 

POST TRAUMATIC STRESS DISORDER AND SHELLSHOCK ARE NOT THE SAME THING

A SINGLE EVENT CAN CAUSE POST TRAUMATIC STRESS DISORDER BUT IT MAY TAKE A STRING OF EVENTS TO CREATE SHELL SHOCK.

SOME PTSD AFFECTED PERSONS CAN EXHIBIT A VARIETY OF ACTIVE BEHAVIORS AND ARE REPUTED TO ENGAGE IN DISORDERLY BEHAVIOR WHICH WOULD BE NOTICED. 

VIRTUALLY PARALYZED PERSONS ARE NOT NOTICED.

ARE THERE VIRTUALLY PARALYZED OR SWAYBACK AFFECTED PERSONS WHO HAD PTSD?

IN THE SHELL SHOCK VIDEOS AND PICTURES THE VICTIMS ARE, LIKE I AM, DISABLED BY THE SWAYBACK. 

THERE ARE OTHER VICTIMS WHO HID OR COWERED IN AVOIDANCE OF THE PERCEPTION OF THEIR TERROR AT THE EVER PRESENT DANGER THEY FACED.

I WOULD NOT HAVE ANY EVIDENCE TO PROVE THAT THERE ARE TWO SEPARATE DISORDERS. IT DOES NOT REALLY MATTER IN MY CASE BECAUSE WHAT WILL HAPPEN TO ME IS COLLAPSE OR CONVULSION WHICH MIGHT ALARM PEOPLE BUT I AM UNABLE TO DO ANYTHING BUT LOOK GRIM AS I STRUGGLE TO STAND AND BREATHE.

WHEN HE BEGAN TO BE HEMMED IN BY TRAFFIC THERE WAS A FORMER SOLDIER WHO HAD FACED BEING FORCED OFF THE ROAD ANYTIME INTO AN IED WHO WOULD EXPERIENCE SYMPTOMS SIMILAR TO WHAT I WOULD EXPERIENCE AS I BEGAN TO COLLAPSE. SERGEANT MCKENNA? WOULD HAVE TO PULL OVER.

That is what happens during the Seizures I experience when I am subjected to the various stimuli that cause either Collapse or Convulsion. I experience their description of how they are not able to get a breath, coupled with severe rigidization of the chest, and sometimes other muscle systems.

THE SOLDIER WOULD HAVE SIMILAR STIFFENING AND TEMPERATURE CHANGES  MOSTLY STARTING IN HIS NECK WHERE MINE SEEM TO START SIMILARILY IN MY LOW BACK.

I know that the Tonic Immobility Collapses can cause a Virtual Paralysis that lasts for months or years. I am not sure whether the effects of Convulsion or Spasm or the Seizures aforementioned are long lasting. It is likely that a thorough research of my Daily Diary of Condition and Activity would reveal what happened after some of the Convulsion episodes. 

DOES THAT PERSON HAVE SHELLSHOCK IN THE SAME WAY AS I DO? THAT BEING SUBJECT TO DANGEROUS ATTACKS ANYTIME AS A CHILD IS SIMILAR TO BEING SUBJECT TO BEING MANIPULATED AND BLOWN UP.

IF THIS  RAID, JUST THE GOONS IN FRONT , CAME TO MY HOUSE, I WOULD COLLAPSE.

I HAVE COLLAPSED INVOLUNTARILY, MANY TIMES,
KNOCKING OUT TEETH AND FROM GOING INTO A CONVULSION,
SIX YEARS AGO I  AM  STILL ALWAYS  DROOLING. 

THERE IS A LOT OF NOT VERY DEFINITE INFORMATION ABOUT WHAT CAUSES TONIC IMMOBILITY BUT THE RESULT, IMMOBILITY, IS ALWAYS THE RESULT.

MY PERSONAL EXPERIENCE DOES ALIGN WITH THE MAIN COMMON SYMPTOM , A FUNCTIONAL PARALYSIS, AS IT IS REPORTED. THE IRREMEDIABLE SITUATION WHERE I AM POWERLESS AND THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO THAT WILL NOT MAKE IT MORE DANGEROUS IS A TYPICAL SCENARIO IN THE LITERATURE ABOUT TONIC IMMOBILITY.

THERE IS THE UNFORTUNATE SITUATION WHERE A WOMAN IS COMPLETELY IN THE WRONG, PRESSING HER UNLAWFUL WILL OVER ME IN MY DELICATE SITUATION AND I AM NOT PERMITTED TO UNDERTAKE ANY EFFECTIVE RESPONSE. POLICE WOULD VIEW ANY CONFLICT AS MY AGGRESSION WHEN IT WAS ALWAYS MY PLACE THAT WAS BEING INVADED OR MY ASSETS THAT WERE BEING STOLEN.

IT DOES NOT MATTER WHO OR WHAT THE OPPOSITION OR THE INVADERS ARE IT IS ALL ABOUT WHOSE PROPERTY IT IS.

THE POLICE WILL DO ANYTHING TO DISQUALIFY SOMEONE THEY HEARD BAD THINGS ABOUT WITHOUT ASSESSING ANY GOVERNMENT OR BUSINESS RECORDS OR ASSESING A MAN'S PERFORMANCE OR EVEN APPLYING BASIC COMMON SENSE. 

EVERYTIME I RECALL THE PARALYZING EVENTS THAT CREATED COLLAPSE IMMOBILITY OR TONIC IMMOBILITY I RELIVE THE PARALYSIS AND ANGUISH.

I THINK THAT DAMNED BULLSHIT AUTHOTITARIANISM CAUSES AN INSTANT FALL INTO COLLAPSED AND VIRTUALLY PARALYZED TONIC IMMOBILITY.

LUCKY FOR ME I WAS NOT IN SHELLSHOCK MODE. I HAVE GOTTEN OUT OF SHELL SHOCK AND/OR TONIC IMMOBILITY SEVERAL TIMES.

 

THIS IS NOT THE THREE WHEELER ON FACEBOOK BUT IT IS HOW THE HARLEY TRIKE CAME AROUND THE CORNER. 

THE HARLEY DAVIDSON WAS ALMOST PRONE WITH THE RIDER'S HEAD A FOOT OFF THE GROUND.

Lindon Collard's  FACE BOOK COMMENT TO A GUY DOING WHEELIES ON A MODERN THREE WHEELER.

THREE WHEELERS WERE CONSIDERED DANGEROUS HERE IN SOUTH WEST BRITISH COLUMBIA WITH THE SINGLE FRONT WHEEL. I WAS SITTING AT THE STOP LIGHT AT 41ST AND FRASER IN VANCOUVER ON MY 1969 NORTON COMMANDO "S" . A HARLEY DAVIDSON TRIKE CAME AROUND OFF FRASER ON TO FORTY FIRST AND UPENDED ON TO ONE WHEEL AND THE FRONT WHEEL. LIKE A SPIDER IT DRIFTED RIGHT AT ME. YOW!. IT HIT THE MID ROAD CURB AND NOT ME. THE LIGHT CHANGED AND I ROLLED THE THROTTLE ON AND SHOT UP FORTY FIRST PAST THE GRAVEYARD.

IT WAS A HARLEY DAVIDSON TRIKE WHICH LOOKED A LOT LIKE THIS ONE.

SOME PARTS HAD BEEN REMOVED SO IT GOT FARTHER OVER INTO ITS UPSET.

Edit: I corrected using the term ``Trike`` to describe the three wheeled Harley.